Monday, February 15, 2010

why cant i stop thinking of u...

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus:Your Guardian Angel

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay
It's okay
It's okay

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing and stars are falling
All for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

'Cause you're my, you're my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
'Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
And please tell me you'll stay
Yeah....whoa....stay....whoa....ohh....

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning grey (grey....)

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
(I will never let you fall...)



Long time no update..

listening to this song,
it only reminds me of a girl,
only her,
it is so hard to get over,
why can't i forget about her,
i just can't accept that she just left me just like that,
after what we have gone through,
i just can't accept it,
no matter how many girls i met,
non of them are like you,
the time when we broke up i think are longer than time we've been together,
i thought u r the one for me,
u r everything to me,
but, u r the one that hurt me so bad,
and u r the one that treat me like i'm nothing,
i hope one day,
u will come back to me,
and when u do,
i never repeat the same mistake twice,
letting you go is my biggest mistake,
as long as it makes u happy,
i don't mind,
i'll wait...

'Cause you're my true love, my whole heart'

Please don't throw that away
Please don't walk away

And please tell me you'll stay

Friday, January 1, 2010

sudah mau g melake..

ermm.. sudah mau g melake balik..
i've been waiting...
ak dah wat ape ak nak kat teluk intan..
ak dah jumpe org ak nak jumpe.
even sekejap and bukan dlam keaadan yg ak mahukan..
apekan daye..
setiap org ade bahagian masing2..
namun begitu..
masih ade yg mengikat ak ke teluk intan..
hajat hati ku untuk bermain tenis dgn ema tak kesampaian kali ini..
munkin ade hari esok..
munkin tidak...
jika ya.. ak harap kite dapat bermain esok..
jika tidak.. inilah bende ak akan regret..
selamat tinggal hometown ku...
in a few hours.. ak akan berade di dalam bus untuk ke melake..
selepas itu ak tidak tahu bile ak akan kembali lagi ke teluk intan...
ak agak puas kali ni....

see u in next post... (agak lame to next post becus i cant feel any juice of writing in uitm, ak x dpt feel untuk menulis) so long...

1.1.10 10.55pm...

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

hajat x kesampaian...

pg td ak bgun awl... cdg nak men tennis ngan ema.. dah janji nak kuar..
setelah smpai court.. reveived text she's on her way.. so i just warm up, maen dgn wall,, blaja servis bola balik.... (more than half a year x maen due 2 my broken collar bone). then dah lame ak men sorg2 die x smpai lg.. ak text die kate dah smpai.. ak ckp ak kat marine.. ak ingat die g court majlis daerah.... upe2nye beliau di Nikmaat *kedai maple tmpat ak* huhu.... adoyai... upe2nyer mlm td ak ajak die kuar mkn lupe nak ajak men tennis dulu.... maybe cuz ak dah biase men then baru g makan.. haha.. kempunan lg nak men tennis.. adoyai.... huhu... T_T

anyway gratz emma dpt 3.67 *ALAMAK DAH LUPE EXACT NUM. IF NOT MISTAKEN* tp yg cofirm, die DL!!!! grats!! and sonok smbang ngan ko td.. lame dah x smbang ngan ko.. haha....

dikedai.. tbe2 family zizie dtg... wah.. en.Puzi dah begaye simpan rambot.. dulu botak.. ak takot bai tgk muke die.. haha... skunk dah ensem bai...

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

cuti yg seronok pade mule, pedih pada tgh, ending x tau lg....

sori lame x update.. x kuase nak update...

cuti bermule....

mule2 g telok batik ngan family..
best... lame x kuar ngan family...

g zoo taiping pown ngan family..
best oo tgk binatang..
memandangkan bapak ku x de stamina nak berjalan dan malas...
make kitorg cume naek train dan ushar2...
terase agak bodoh bg duit dan tgk lebih kurang cam 2..
tp ok lar dpt tgk gajah close up n tgk beliau beraksi...

g umah tokcik pown ngan family...
selepas g zoo..

g angsoka mandi swimming pool ngan kengkwan..
best giler bai...
i missed my friend...
thanks ijat...
ak ingat ko mrah ngan ak... diam jer ngan ak..
ijat dah giler pandai swimming...
amek sport science katekan..
ah leng...
kau babi... kau kate x reti berenang.. ko pown pro...
emi... pown ok...
walaupown air yg berkocak x padan dgn km/h ko..
asep ngan fizi... ok lar..
ak pulak biase2 jer..
suffering several cramps in the water..
sgt penat berenang..
haha..
tp best...

keesokan hari selepas berenang.. bermula pengalaman pahit ak...
mlm hari yg ak g berenang...
ak x leh tido.. bahu kanan ku sakit..
munkin kerane cubaan berenang breaststroke yg susah cam babi n memenatkan...
stelah a sapu ubat..
tangan ku lege..
tapi bukan itu saje..
perot ku teramat sakit...
dari kol 3 pagi...
ak x lene tido..
4 kali ke bilik air...
cam sial!!!!

setelah pagi...
ak terlajak tido kerane bile kol 6 lebih baru perot ku agak tenang..
kol 9 terjage pasal call of the nature...
3 kali lak tuh..
lahanat...
ak tgk miskol..
SHIT!!! EMA KOL!!!..
ak terlewat untuk ke tennis yg sepatutnyer kol 8.30..
ak terus bersiap dan smpai ke court dlam kol 9.20..
die tgh bermaen dgn bekas jurulatih die...
kol 9.45..
ujan...
cam babi...
x dapat maen...

ptg nyer..
ak bercadang jumpe wani yg dah bape kali nak jumper..
ak pown dah rindu kat die..
janji nak tgk wayang...
ak pegi dgan menunggang moto member ak...
kerane kereta agak susah untuk mencari parking and ade sebab tersendiri...
on the way pergi...
ak accident....
adoyai...
keling ini bwk di tgh jalan punyer slow...
mamat di depan ku telah overtake..
ak pown nak ikot....
tbe2 ak nampak lampu sgnal ke kanan menyale sambil trus keling 2 belok...
malang nasib ku...
ak brek x mkn..
so ak pam brek sekuat hati..
tayar tersagat dan ak jatuh kerana nak mengelak indu tu....
ak x dpat nak overtake sbb indu 2 x perasaan n die trus jer nak membelok..
kalau ak x smpat brek....
beliau sudah mati td...
make...
keling 2 salahkan ak..
biaselah keling...
die ckap dah on signal dari jauh...
pukimak die...
mamat dpan ak dah overtake..
ak pown nak overtake..
sebab die x on signal dan bwk slow sgt..
dtg seorg melayu...
hentak je keling 2 katenyer...
ak tersentak kerana bukan itu tujuan ak..
sebaliknyer cume hendak memnta ganti rugi kerana itu bukan moto ak..
ak malas memanjangkan hal itu ke polis..
buang mase..
bukti yg ade hanye kate2..
org 2 pown x de pape...
so biarlah....
dan seterusnyer..
fork member ku bengkok..
itulah major prob..
rm101 habis duit ku..
yg extra rm1 adalah harga sticker...
kerane untuk cubaan cover dari pengetahuan bapenyer...
sorri yer asep...
buat pengetahuan sekalian..
beliau adelah member baek saye dan menunggang wave S 125 kaler merah...
hari malang buat ku..
anggota badanku masih sengal2...
poket ku sakit habis..
tp bak kate jang...
sume org ade bahagian masing2..
dah takdir ak acciden...
WANI??
jumpe die di bengkel sahaje...
die semakin comel..
haha..
sorri x dpt g wayang...
esok die akan ke KL.. so ini jelah peluang ku..
ermmm... x de rezeki..
maybe next time and thanks 4 understanding...
wani ngan ak mcm abg and adik...
ak x ckp pown die adik angkat sbb ak x suke gune term 2...
kitorg dah kenal lame..
die pown dah berganti 2 kali kot bf x pown 3 x ingat..
haha..
biarlah.....


inilah cuti ku setakat ini...
esok siapa kan tahu...
maybe g KL.. bos den dah ajak g KL..
huhu..

leave a comment..
thanks.. see u in the next post..
7.58pm..29.9.09

btw.. ak harap dpt g swimming lg skali and maen tennis ngan ema...

Monday, November 9, 2009

meet again

so now i'm sitting in mcD at the MC aka MS yer itik?? currently being surrounded by: dpan ak sorg girl nigga shit... 6 oclock 2 girls eating facing wach other, 8 oclock direction 2 young maybe school girl.. kinda hot and keep smiling to me when i looked in her direction.. damn... what the hell. the girls are both clothes and wore the same baju kurung... haha... btw... after few failed attempts on connecting to the internet i managed to get connected(if not i will not be writing this blog) i felt stupid kinda cuz on9 in the mcD and alone... fuck.. BUT.. my intention of on9 as soon as possible is to read meor a.k.a senat's blogpost... rumours going on in the campus bout his blog and i never had a private moment 2 slowly read his post... what makes me really want to read his post is after listening to itik's verbal comment on his post... i dunno what to comment after reading his post.. i rather do not read it at all.. to me.. everyone got their own problems it just a matter of how we handle it... btw.. lets face it.. meor is not one in a kind cases we've seen a lot of psyshos out there and ppl with more problem out there. but its not we all turn to suicidal.. ask your self dear readers.. do you have any problems?? dark secrets that you wouldnt even want to think about?? we do have problem.. no matter who you are.. to others may see your problem as small.. but because we ARE living in different situation and diff porblems will cause diff effects on us.. we all have problems... there is always a solution.. to me (pliss everyone who knew me) i know i am not a religious person... ak mmg x ikot semua ajaran agama (i dun deny) BUT.. ALLAH always there for each of us no matter how bad we are we are still here because of nikmat allah.. sedangkan nikmat yang allah beri sekiranya dijadikan semua air di dunia ini dakwat dan semua pokok di dunia pena.. maka x akan cukup untuk menulis semua nikmat ALLAH di dunia ini.... MASYAALLAH.. kita harus kembali kepadanya what ever problem we had.. no matter how hard.. ALLAH syangkan kita semua... ALLAH maha pengampun dan sentiasa memberi nikmat kepada kita.. x kira siapa kita.. kita harus percaye yakin kepadanya kenapa?? KITA ORG ISLAM!!!! ALLAH MAHA BESAR... KITA CUME HAMBA YANG LEMAH sentiase perlu petunjuk dan hidayah daripadnya.. seteruk mana pun masalh...itu semua ujian ALLAH.. kite msti yakin dan tabah dan percaya kepada nya.... LIFE SUCKS UNFAIR!!! BUT IT STILL GOOD!!!!! we havent seen enough for us to die... ape lagi bunuh diri.... kenarake sesiape yg bunuh diri.. sanggup ke kite tinggal di dalam nerake for all eternity repeting the moment we suicide over and over again?? dimana rukun iman kalau tidak percaye semua itu?? if u pray?? and what do you think while yuou praying?? u have to think for yourself.. ak bukan org kuat agame... ak bnyk salah silap.. ak tau i am a sinner... ak tau bnyk perlu ak terima di dalam kubur semasa disoal... u all know better than me... i am just saying what i felt.. i dunno what to say bout meor's case anymore.. if u still want to suicide!! dun trouble other people.. find a suitble place just go clean... u make other people suffer more than u did.. ur own roomate.. KO, DANNY, MT blok, RAOUF(u r a good fren), AM, KHALIS, lectures, ur gf, bella, and everyone who know you... but nothng copare to ur PARENTS!!! ur mom who carried u for 9 month!!!! give birth to you!!!! take care of you!!! no matter teruk mane x cukup kasih syang ke ape shit, but u never make it to 18 years old if not becus of them... ENOUGH!!!!!

ok now lets talk bout sumthng else..
I MISSED ABG KO!!!!! take care of ur grandma cuz if u r in somewhere else while she needs you (you know what i mean) u will regret it the whole of ur life abg.... other than that MUETS SUCKS!!!! fuck the system.. what the hell we only into the dewan when ppl started liao.. FUCK YOU!!!! FUCK YOUR SPEAKERS!!!! FUCK YOU AGAIN!!!!


special thanks: (only recent for recent even k)
itik: anta ak ke MC... thanks bro..
wan long: bnyak bercerita ngan ak... relaks long... kite usaha tuhan yg tentukan..
danny: spending time with me... sorri x dpat ganti... T_T
abah: men big 2 mlm td best giler bai...
madi: haha.. x tau ape nk ckp... just thanks bro u r a great fren...
izuln sukbean: thanks for the memories..
yoe: lagu bad romance haha
jupi: x pnah bosan sembang ngan ko..



x suke ke suke ke blog ak peduli ape ak.. ak tulis ape ak rase.. blog ak.. leave a comment...

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

still no title... just writing what is on my mind...

so today(now 1.30 am) i will be going bacm 2 uitm at 11.00 am... my bus from ti straight to malacca... i cant wait 2 see both my abg long n abg ngah there.... i hope they will be there though i am sure bout danny but i dunno but abg KO... zzzzz speaking bout KO... that day he is in a bad mood... unti l today i dunno if there is any improvement... i think he should be orite.. i dunno if he is angry with me..bt i hope no cuz i dun think i've done anythng serious though... erm, so the sem break is like fuck.. boring like hell...
lesen 3rd and final trial!!!
i passed!!!! yay... fuck.. i paid my motor licence as if i am taking another car or maybe GDL.. fucker... but at least i passed... yesterday evening i get my licence officially at the akak lesen.. she said pasni x jumpe lar farid dah.... lesen dah kuar x de lar nak dtg sini... i notice she was quite sad when she spoke that... zzzzz... i like that akak so much.. she's nice and very efficient in doing her job...
and ya and a couple days (friday)ago i met my old boss at the mosque during jumaat prayer.. we had a small talk and i asked him if he got katering the same moment he is offering me a job... haha.. what a coincidence... so the time was set, i was to be at the kantin at 3pm.. wearing my uniform tshirt, jeans, selipar haha... so i started work.. bout 5 new workers... and 1 new makcik tukanf masak... fuck i hate her mouth... talks too much... feels like stuffing my fist into her big fat mouth... that nite though she brought her daughter to help... fuck her daughter was cute... sorry to say i wouldnt want a mother in law like that.. nice too see nice too hold... once you buy it ur dead.. haha.... btw, i was fucking exhausted... we worked till 3 am.. cus we had to wash all the pinggan mankuk hayun periuk bla2... it is very tiring too because we had to do katering hidang not buffet for 200 ppl.. shit.. so many lauk yet pay so little.. i pity my boss.. HE IS A VERY GOOD MAN!!! generous kind hearted to anyone... i am sometimes touched by the way he treat ppl.. so after working. i went to the 7e... fuck.. i wanted to kaco this cashier.. she likes to flirt.... i wish she is fuckable.. haha... btw.. i bought red bull sadly she was not there.. and yesterday i went to kantin again just to chit chat with my frens currently working there and the makcik and boss. haha.. he paid me.. i already forgot bout the salary cus it was fun working wit him.. he paid me 50.. a lot considering this is teluk intan *norm is 20-30 katering pay*, io only work from 3pm not the whole day.. but when i asked him why too much, his replies mintak halal pe2 yer farid.. (i supposed 2 say that).. erm i said biase 30 jer bang asal bnyk lak.... saye tlg je diorg bnyk wat kejer (the 2 current canteen worker) he said nvm u r studying... thanks boss.. back at the kantin his wife cooked me nasi goreng special.. haha... she knows i love her nasi goreng since the day i worked there, haha... thanks kak.. i missed my old days.. working wit my bestfren hasif.. (speaking of asep)
last weekend he called me telling that he will be at home.. i was like?? aik mule2 kate x blik*he told me in ym* but i was looking forward of lepak with him... but sadly.. he got things to do and hanging out with his poli friends... i was haihh.. biut at least with all his things he still managed to come to my house at the saturday.. at around one.. he came just to talk to me.. huhu... i was happy to see him but sad cant spend time together.... damn i missed my old days...
cancel jumpe member lame...
we planned to meet but suddnly one of them got a relative who passed away.. postponed... but then she told me she wouldnt be around at evening.... so we had to gather in the morng.. damn raining that morning so i went to work at canteen*katering*
suddenly my other friends asked me can i come?? i was like WHAT THE FUCK?? she said she wouldnt be around in the evening so i set that time to work... but then she already planned for movies.. great... wouldnt even text me... thanks frens... u all are fucker.. damn u all (exp ema.. she is innocent)
yada2 yada2... i am still cant be botherd to talk to them... if it is so hard to gather what supposed to be best frens let it be.... i couldnt careless... go down 6 feet under....



wednesday... 2.05 am..

Thursday, October 29, 2009

no title... no idea for title.

so.... today i went 2 to learn motorcycle... (i dun need it though).... so let me tell u sumthng bout my motor licence. ak da amek lesen secare sah motor dan kete pas spm hbis... i mean legally cuz sebelum 2 ak bwk jer moto pake lesen agong... haha... x pnh kantoi lak... ok, then ak test moto+kete... ak fail moto and lulus kete.. VAHVI!!!! FUCK URSELF LAR JPJ... ak da bg isyarat sume da di kate ak x buat mmg MOTHER F*** lar JPJ... ak punye cantik berenti, lambai cam bodo.. die kasi fail.... ak sgt x puas hati cuz time ak test ade lbih 10 org dalam litar n just 2 org JPJ 2 inspect... i was like WTF?? how r they going 2 do their job... cemane diorg nak tgk sume org dalam litar 2?? 10+ ppl??? what the fuck JPJ.. do ur work ok... n time ak gagal lesen 70% org amek lesen moto failed... MMG SHIAL nyer JPJ
cubaan pertama repeat lesen...
ok then after few weeks... ak blaja blik moto sket2 time keje... owh, btw ak fail bhagian 3 or bhagian yg korg kena angkat tgn lambai2 2... bhagian jalan raye full marks.. haha munkin training praktikal bertahun2... then ak amek repeat lg skali....
sehari sebelum test...
ak dah janji ngan bos ak nak katering kenduri.... bos ak lak ckp mlas nak amek pekeje ramai sbab ramai pown bnyak yg lepak.... ak x ksah sbab antara pekeje ak ngan member ak senior n bg arahan kat org(gaji lebih if senior).. n kalo ramai sgt gaji kurang bai.... so ak x ksah.. in the mean time ak lupe ak nak amek test pada esok arinyer... MAMPUS AK!!! akak tmpat lesen kol, sori lar kak x dpat amek lesen.. VAHVI kene dende x g test....
cubaan kedua repeat lesen...
ok.. now i am fucking lazy to do my lesen.... so i just ignored it until one day i got my uitm offer.. if i delay again nanti bile nak amek lesen i tought.. so ak pown g lar renew lesen yg dah expired... n set tarikh 2 days before going 2 uitm...
one day before lesen
ak baru anta adik ak g skool.. on my way back 2 work bout 2 o'clock... ak involve in accident.... hit and run.. U MOTHER FUKER!!!! so i broke my clavicle or collar bone...trust me it is really painful... went 2 the hospital.. x leh simen so kene biar dlm sling... if i know siape yg langgar ak that day, i swear he will be sorry to be born on earth... 2 mlam ak mmg x tido.. ak mmg bese tido guling2 n mengiring... giler nak megiring atas collar bone patah?? so telentang... x leh tido x leh gerak mcm sial... seksa sungguh idop time 2...so ak kol akak lesen.. kak sori x dpat dtg... puki, die marah ak lak.. ko pduli ape?? bayar ak.. amek test ak.... fail ak... repeat pown ak... n it's not like i purposely mintak kene langgar...
so that is first n second trial of lesen moto yg puki 2...
N NOW THE THIRD TRIAL!!!!!
so after 1 sem in uitm... i come back for revenge... ak nak lulus moto ak... VAHVI!!! again renew lesen bayar dende x pg lesen dulu 2...
so pagi karang becuz skunk dah lepas kol 12 ak nak amek test kol 9 pagi... mintak2 ak pas... doakan ak..

ps... motif blog ni adalah menyatakan JPJ x cekap n pengurusan lesen yg terlalu memeras duit org.... n bercerta pengalaman lesen moto ak yg cam sial..... i hope u enjoy... x enjoy pown ak susah per bai.. haha..

friday.. 12.11 am